15 Weeks

Just a mere 15 weeks ago Oliver Harrison Conran entered this world and changed my life forever.

I wondered if I would have enough love, enough mothering, enough everything to service both the emotional and physical needs of another child. I doubted that I would have the ability to offer him the same childhood as I did Flynn. You wonder if you will feel the same when you have another baby and if the wonder and amazement and miracle of having a baby will be the same or if the sheen fades the second time around.

People ask me this question now- is having a second baby any less exciting ? My answer is absolutely not. I still swoon over the smiles, go stupid over the coos and call everyone over to look when he does something new. I have taken 531,758 photos (slight exaggeration) and it doesn’t look like slowing down anytime soon.

It is almost more special the second time around as you are acutely aware of just how quick the newborn time goes and how in what feels like just a fleeting moment they are toddling around the house.

You cherish every single breath the second time around.

You spend you spare time kissing their neck and breathing in their baby smell as you know they will ever so soon be a sweaty toddler. You gaze into their beautiful baby face as you feel it almost change in that instant.

I was on the Ngala website (fabulous resource)  a few days ago and was struck by the fact that when I went into You and your family section and then to Newborn  they had this listed as babies aged 0-3 months !! What the ? When did my newborn become a baby? Boy was I sad. As much as I feel I have soaked it in the best I possibly could I still feel a little cheated.

After almost 10 months of carrying this sweet babe he is growing into an aware and talkative little boy who watches his mummy walk around the room and stops crying at the sound of my voice. Who now loves tummy time and “chats” with all of his toys on the play mat.

We set up a new play area for you in the living room so mummy can watch you play happily.

And along with your hands you have now realized you have these amazing things called feet. You love to kick and kick and kick. And as much as I love that you are developing perfectly and doing everything you are meant to be doing it is all happening way too fast for this mummy.

Oliver you are absolutely perfect, we love you more words. And I say it again but I mere 15 weeks ago you seriously changed my life. You made me refocus on the important stuff, taking it slow, having a cuddle and soaking in all that is childhood.

After all of the hard and difficult days that pregnancy bought me I am right back where I want to be – and I know that this is absolutely the best time of  my life. Between the snotty noses and the toilet training, the spewing and the poop through incident, there is life here. A life created through love.

And I never ever forget every single day just how lucky I am to have the two most beautiful boys any mother could ever ask for.